KulArts “She Who Can See”: A Revolutionary & Healing Dance/Theatre/Film Production

Yesterday was one of those fly dreams.
Where swift currents carry you exactly to where you need to be.
No need to swim upstream when you have the gift to SEE.


Journeying through Frisco to the heart of the SOMA, 6th street, cutting through Saturday drivers, whose break heavy feet clog up the city streets. The parking gods were with us, we pulled up, blessed up, right in time to slide into the small theatre at Bindlestiff Studio. It was my first time going to this theatre that opened in 1989 and stands as one of the only, permanent performing arts venues that is rooted in showing Filipino American and Pilipino artists. The doors swung open welcoming us out of the cold windy streets into the warmhearted lobby.

We slid through the open doors, I walked up, received our tickets at the will call for “She Who Can See”. I spotted Alleluia Panis, the founder of Kularts and the choreographer of the piece standing up front, surveying who came in. She reminded me of a gatekeeper of sorts, making sure that those who entered the space would be safe in what I could already tell would be a magical undertaking. Every ceremony has an elder that creates a sacred space, keeping in that which is good and out what does not need to be there. This multimedia dance, film, and musical production was no different. Like all forms of healing art, this was just as much a prayer as it was a performance.

We descended the steps into the belly of Bindlestiff, and my eyes fell upon the audience, chirping and chattering in anticipation, packing the intimate studio space to the brim. No two seats left, said the big bodied bouncer who was guiding people to rest in their small wooden chairs. I said “Okay” and he kindly sensed my reluctance (which I thought I hid). He said, “We can ask this whole row to move over a seat for you? Do you want to ask?”

I smiled. Now, I’m all for asking for what you need, but often I’m not the one to be the first to throw a rock into a glassy still pond, to start all the ripples. I like to dip my toes in gently and smooth into the flow most of the time, like water.

He said “I’ll ask with you, let’s go”. As we ascend the steps to the top row, he says “Oh wait, it looks like there’s two seats, right there for you.”

“Perfect.” I said. In my heart I feel another blessing as I am guided to the apex of the theatre, centered in the aisle so nobody is between me and the dancers, and I’m levitated a few feet above the floor so I can survey the whole scene. I prepare to receive the transmission.

Before the lights dim, it feels like a family event, bay strong community present. Lights go down and Alleluia appears on the stage, introduces her visionary work, and again like a shaman herself playfully asks us to be aware of the surroundings, in the event that the spirits come into the building. We laugh, I pray, and so it goes.

I’ll be honest, before coming to the theatre, I thought that I was coming to see a FILM. Like, eat popcorn and zone into a 2d screen that would no doubt tell a compelling story, but still be on that 2 dimensional level. THIS. is the evolved version of a film, that tells the story of a young Pinay woman who can see beyond this world, and has a very intense and life shaking “homecoming” as she finally faces the spirits and energies that visit her.

Live dance performances, dope original music, and deeply moving theatrical storytelling with cinematic background, “She who can see” invites you to fully embody the experience of this young woman as she stands on the border between this world and the next. Her visions collide with her ability to exist in the day to day world, encroach into her intimate relationships, and ultimately change her mind-body and spiritual composition.

Four spirits danced in an out of her life, in a hauntingly graceful, yet playful and optimistic fashion, embodying the movements of water, earth, and fire. In the background, cinematic art is projected onto 4 screens, creating a fragmented effect that mirrors the hybridity of this woman’s awakening process.

I watched as this woman danced/swam upstream against the current of her spiritual inheritance, until she literally shook herself into chaotic exhaustion. As her grip on this dimension broke, I witnessed a healing take place. In one of my favorite scenes, spirits came into screen and stage, to perform an otherworldly intervention, (a)tuning up her vibration, and thus all of ours together.


I was floored. No drought for me, rivers flowed down my face, straight up! This piece was so powerful and timely. To watch a young woman dance through indigenization, acceptance, healing and thus…empowerment, is a gift. I am in awe of Alleluia, the musicians, photographers, and dancers. All of whom I had the pleasure of meeting and thanking at the end of the production.

I live for this type of work. It gives me so much life to see these kinds of productions. And we know that it is much more than just art, it is ceremony, history, healing, consciousness, and awakening. What we all dearly need and crave in this lifetime. Everyone who left last night could see a bit more, and that impact is a revolutionary act.


With my Friend and Performer: Sammay Dizon

For more on this Film & the talented artists involved like Alleluia Panis, Sammay Dizon, Florante Aguilar and Wilfred Galila check out the Ma’Artes festival artists page. Or better yet, enjoy the arts and pin@y culture in real life during the Month of May 2015, at the San Francisco festival. Check it out at: http://www.maartesfestival.com

Power up and power on brothas and sistas…


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EQ in 2015: Homecoming

 Hello World! An update about Eternal Queens Crew in 2015! We’ve been working from the heart this year and are ready to serve up some new fresh flows to feed ya soul + and quench the thirst for the Eternal Queendom (you thirsty?? I know you are!).

Claire and I have been collaborating again with one of our favorite soul sistren Laila Espinoza on a new art show: Home Is Where the Art Is.

The theme of the show, HOME, invites us to collectively explore…What does home really mean? In our increasingly complex and multicultural global community, how do we maintain a sense of home-ness? Where is that? Who is there? What do we do with it? How/What do we create there? Is our home life art?

The show and these questions are matched with our Art Residence Manifesto:

In response to the increasingly growing gap between art and life as well as the the limited opportunities for under-represented artists in accessing spaces for art making and exhibiting, we establish the home as art space.

Because we don’t wait for opportunity, but instead create our own opportunities with whatever means and resources we have readily available to us,

Because we see everyday objects (natural and man-made) as meaningful art materials,

Because our homes are not just for living but for creating as well,

Because our home is the studio where creative ideas are born out of everyday life experiences,

Everyday activities and experiences shall not be separate from art.

With that in mind, Myself, Claire, Laila, and her son Nyanga, worked for 2 months together to build an installation within her home. Most importantly, we gathered. Spent time together. Cooked together, ate together and drank together, we danced, had family time, and allowed for unrestricted play and unraveled a free and unbridled unrestrictive creative process to ensue.

It sounds simple. And it a way it is. Presence with each other IS simple. In our increasingly digitized world, we become separate, alone, and as artists, sometimes our works can consume us. Our studios, depending on where they are can be isolating, and even cave like.


But at our artist residency in Laila’s home, that was opposite. We had no rules, everyone who came in to be a part of our gathering is an artist too. From her 6 year old son, who is a visionary painter already, to our partners, neighbors, and friends who would pop in for a moment. Hot pancakes and food would be shared and a paintbrush offered to their hand. When we create together, we heal together. It’s unavoidable. We become indestructible.

The PROCESS was ELEVATING, VISIONARY, ENERGIZING, and REVOLUTIONARY. We laughed until our sides ached, and slowly with each stroke created a friction that stands in opposition of the institutionalized narratives of “high art” “gallery art”. Our gallery is at home, where the family is, for the family, for our community to understand, feel, and reap the benefits from.

I remember Laila saying, “If my family can’t understand it, there is no point in making it for me”. Its an important question, who do you make your art for? Why?

At times I felt as if we were the many stars twinkling in galaxies. Shineing, burning up in intense heat, chaos and beauty all raveled into one. Deep connection, creative expansion, and collaboration with friends is art, it is home, those ideals don’t need to be separated and shouldn’t be.

Claire was our documentarian, historian, and captured our process on camera. She is putting together a short video to recap our stories. More to come soon J.

For me, the most important part of this was to breaking out of my habitual creative patterns and build with womxn who have their own unique styles. While Claire, Laila, and I all share passion for art that celebrates women, and we all include themes of spirituality and feminism in our work, we each bring a powerful piece of the puzzle to the whole.unnamed-1

So to work along side these two queens was a blessing, they are my teachers. Nyanga, Laila’s 6 year old is my teacher. His freedom and limitless expression is so perfect. This process was like a full circle, returning to the parts of creating that STARTED me to create in the first place—being with friends, having fun, and having no limitations. A childlike and playful mind is a valuable asset in this life that can be way too serious sometimes.

Having them mirror my work and finding commonalities, sharing stories, and influencing each other is a gift.


IMPORTANT PROCESS POINT: to create with people you care about. To break out of boxes of ‘traditional art’, to challenge the idea of what/where art is/should be, and make your home a sacred space for connection and creating. In our hyper speed 24/7 culture where NOT stopping to connect in person is the norm, its crucial that we create and hold MORE spaces for each other to make art, build friendships, and come together.

I’d love to hear your ideas on what home is for you and how you create art in the home! Feel free to share in comments! Peace & Love my brothers and sisters!


Eternal Queens

SHE HEALS SERIES: Healing the Mother with Laila Espinoza

Living in the SF Bay Area is like living in the most fruitful creative garden that has nonstop, juicy, colorful, beautiful harvests year round that always provide artistic abundance. That is exactly why we are so juiced to share with you the art and stories of powerful artists who are making healthy shifts in their personal lives and in the community through their art.

Laila Espinoza is one of these women. We sat down with her and talked about her life, experiences, and how art has been a tool in her overcoming major challenges. She is not only an incredible artist, but an inspired woman, mother, and teacher whose story about relating to illness in her family touched me deeply.

Watch the Eternal Queens Exclusive Interview with Laila, the latest in our SHE HEALS SERIES. Enjoy :)

Laila is currently in Oakland, CA and is attending the Community Arts Program at California College of the Arts. Check out her website and more of her amazing art at http://lailaespinoza.org/

Video shot and edited by EQ’s own: Claire Vela

In Gratitude,



Hello world. It’s been a while since Eternal Queens has been posting online. I have taken some well needed time to recuperate, regenerate, and revision major parts of my lifestyle. Sometimes to heal means to honor our natural cycles of action and rest. Taking refuge when one needs it is vital to health, and in a culture that does not value the act of ‘slowing down’ by any means, women especially must ferociously protect this right.

So, it has been done, and like all cyclical things it has passed, taught me much, and helped me to become a better artist and all around healthier person. Today I stand in gratitude for the lessons that arise from silence, stillness, and deep meditations.

I hope you too are finding peace and gratitude daily. I share with you an original EQ comissioned piece that honors this essence and beauty. Enjoy, and stay tuned in with us for more EQ in 2014.

A queen in a peaceful state of mind, surrounded by the beauty of nature.

A queen in a peaceful state of mind, surrounded by the beauty of nature.


Stay blessed!!! With love,


Honoring Christopher Rose + Veterans Alley


“Veterans are the light at the tip of the candle, illuminating the way for the whole nation. If Veterans can achieve awareness, transformation, understanding and peace, they can share with the rest of society the realities of war. And they can teach us how to make peace with ourselves and each other, so we never have to use violence to resolve conflicts again.”
– Thicht Nhat Hanh

Today marks the 12th anniversary of the 9/11 attacks which killed nearly 3,000 people, and remains the single largest loss of life from a foreign attack on American soil. We look to the after math of this tragic and controversial event, and see a raging political wildfire which led indirectly to the U.S. Wars in Afghanistan and Iraq. Today, it is estimated that over 6,700 U.S. deaths occurred as a result of both wars, with much higher numbers for those wounded or injured. In rememberance, Eternal Queens honors the lives of those who died in war, and takes a look at the artistic expression of those who returned from the harsh realities of the conflict.

EQ went out to San Francisco Veteran’s Alley to show support and tune into the mural project that has been evolving in Shannon Alley over the past 2 years. We met up with Amos (below), one of the mural project founders who invited myself and my partner, Dino, out to paint a commemoration piece in the Alley. Amos, a veteran of the U.S. Naval Submarine service, realized this mural project when he was photographing homeless vets (a.k.a. Angels) at night, in the Tenderloin, a neighborhood where many homeless vets reside in the streets suffering from the aftermath of war trauma.  This inspired the birth of a massive, one-block long piece of living, healing artwork. The alley vividly showcases the voices, struggles, and expression of veterans, regardless of their discharge status, gender, time served, or sexual orientation.


Peace From Amos: In front of a mural in progress

As we arrived, there was one artist painting a wall which read, “CHELSEA MANNING: Wikileaks Whistle Blower + LGBTQ HERO.”  I soon find out that he is a veteran just as most, if not all of the other artists who have painted in the alley are. You can hear the passion in their voice when they speak about current events, the war, service, and of loss.


An overwhelming number of people have directly or indirectly experienced loss or know someone who has lost a friend or loved one as a result of war. My partner’s cousin, Christopher Rose, was in fact the very first Iraq war casualty from San Francisco back in June of 2006. Christopher, a Filipino-American known for his smile and devotion to his family, was out one day on a regular duty patrol when he stopped and climbed out of his Humvee to remove some barbed wire blocking the road. As he was doing this, he stepped on a buried explosive device that detonated and killed him.  He was only 21 years old.

Christopher D. Rose would smile and remind his two older siblings how pretty they were. A kind hearted soul, he is missed greatly.

Christopher D. Rose would always flash his smile and remind his two older siblings how pretty they were.

That day we painted in Chris’ honor…

Showing love for Chris and EQ: The Pigeon to the left chills out with us the whole time.

Showing love for Chris and EQ: The Pigeon to the left chills out with us the whole time.

“The first casualty of war is TRUTH”

“The first casualty of war is TRUTH”

As we painted, kids walk through the alley and ask about the many pieces of art. I hoped that it got them thinking about the consequences of war in a different way than the fictionalized dramas that are projected to them through the media. The art in this alley provides an alternative to the images, movies, television, and video games that glorify warfare, militarism, and violence. It brings awareness to the reality of war, illuminates the fact that service in the military isn’t as entertaining as playing Call of Duty at their house or watching their favorite violent action movie.

As you walk up and out of the alley, it takes only a block or so before you see an ad for the flavor of the week role-playing video game. I hope that the message that people absorb by walking through the alley day by day serves as a buffer to these types of visual assaults. May it grab the attention of who ever needs to see it and get them thinking more about the control that media has in feeding the military-industrial complex. Some people may not like it, they may think it’s an ‘eye-sore’, I say- it’s only sore because the truth really hurts.

The conversations about the reality of war and violence and its impact on our selves, culture, families, economy, environment and collective psyche are important and they are healing. That’s why this Veteran’s Mural Project is a gem in the concrete jungle of San Francisco. It takes back a public space that houses parts of a collective wound and initiates meaningful conversation about one of the most relevant issues of our time. It gives veterans who have painful but truthful stories about the harsh reality of their experience a space to speak their mind and transforms the space into something more positive.

DON’T BELIEVE THE HYPE: What narratives do we REALLY want our media to propagate? What role is it playing now in our collective health?

DON’T BELIEVE THE HYPE: What narratives do we REALLY want our media to propagate? What role is it playing now in our collective health?

Today, we are facing the potential of the beginning of yet another violent war in Syria as the U.S. government lobbies to gain support for the use of military force as ‘retribution’ for what it says was a deadly chemical weapons attack.  What will the toll be for the U.S. to get involved in a sectarian civil war? What wounds does this create for our future generation? What do you have to say about it?

May we remember today on 9/11 that peace is in every step we take… We have the power to stop the violence in our lives and help to Stop the violence worldwide. 

1 Love and Peace to All.



Hello to all members of our digital family!!

ImageExciting news! The Eternal Queens crew just returned back to the bay from an awesome trip to Southern California, where we were ON A STUNNING SET, filming an all original intro to our latest artist interview for the SHE HEALS SERIES.


For those who don’t know, the SHE HEALS SERIES is an ongoing project produced by Eternal Queens that spotlights local Bay Area Women who are using ART as a tool to heal themselves, others, and the earth. We are paying respect to the groundbreaking work that is being done in the Bay Area to uplift and inspire a more healthy, happy, and whole future.

Our latest interview will spotlight Oakland based artist Laila Espinoza. Gifted in the arts of storytelling, painting, and community based work, Laila is a modern day sage, bridging the spheres of arts, transformation and healing. Her art is deeply soulful, and touches on the collective experiences, challenges, and evolutionary processes of both the eternal and modern day woman.


Eternal Queens is happy to have had the pleasure of sitting down with her to hear about her story and latest inspirational projects. Please, STAY TUNED for her upcoming amazing interview with her which will also feature an all original cinematic introduction brought to you fresh from the EQ crew.

Learn more about Laila Espinoza and her transformational artwork at her website: http://lailaespinoza.org/

1 Love!
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Invisible People: A Walk

I hear great things about San Francisco from visitors. “Everyone’s so friendly”, “It’s so cool here”. Which it is. But there’s always the one complaint, “There’s so many homeless people here.”

San Francisco has a long history of homeless. During the 1980’s, the City blamed Vietnam and the Drug Culture for the growing number of people on the street. At the same time, President Regan cut funding to Section 8 and public housing in half after systematically closing mental hospitals as Governor of California. The Regan administration continued cuts funding to mental health programs through his presidency.

The homeless in SF is bothersome. It’s uncomfortable, sad and you pretend they’re not there. Unfortunately, 39% person of homeless in the US have some kind of mental illness and 22% have been diagnosed with a chronic condition. So when someone is my family began to suffer from serious mental illness, I couldn’t pretend to not see the homeless any more.

I shot this video so that I could really see them in juxtaposition with the consumerism and masses of “normal” people in the Downtown. They are always there. We just never see them.

The city has mainly dealt with them through “sweeps” in which the homeless are displaced, in order to make them less visible.

Much Love,